Pre-Pregnancy weight: 195 lbs.
Current Weight at end of pregnancy: 202 lbs.
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April 05, 2005 - 3:12 p.m.
A bit of quiet time again here at my house so I thought I'd jot a bit down. We're moving back to the Hampton Roads area in VA in two months. And I finally talked Schuyler into buying a house since we'll be living there for a while. (And yes, Karyl, we'll be there when Kurt gets stationed back there in a few years) And we found one we like too. It's a 4 bedroom, 2 bathroom house with a basement. Yes, you read that right. A basement in Hampton Roads. How unusual is that? Anyhow. I'm excited because it has enough room that if we do decide to have more children, we can! Speaking of more children, we're talking about it. (did you like how I transitioned into that?) And yes, Carrot is only 2 1/2 months old but ya got to start talking about these things early to prevent having more surprises too soon. We keep going back and forth, do we or don't we? And if we do, are we going to adopt or try to get pregnant again? If we adopt, do we adopt domestically or internationally? If we get pregnant again, do I want to attempt another vaginal birth? Am I going to be able to find someone willing to try a vba2c with me? Do I really want that stress? And then I also look at Carrot and think to myself, "She can't possibly be the last baby I nurse" with tears in my eyes. Of course, Greenbean is still nursing but only on occasion when she feels the need. She's down to once a day again, which is great for me. I get a little touched out when she wants to nurse more then that. Don't get me wrong, I love nursing. It's been a great experience being able to be that close to my kids. Knowing that I can provide something for them that is so good. But at Greenbean's age it comes to a point where sometimes I don't want to. That's where it gets frustrating for both of us. Some days, she really wants to nurse and it's because she feels the need to be close to me. Like maybe she's had an especially hard day. She'll be 21 months on Saturday and I promised myself to have her weaned by 2. But right now, she still isn't quite ready to give it up all the way. Especially since her little sister needs to nurse all the time, it's hard to hide it or even offer a distraction. Okay, I've got to quit rambling here. I'll be on later.
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